There is so much to say that I do not know where to begin. Well, the obvious is that I am a housewife who has been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, and I have Obsessive-compulsive disorder tendencies (I do not meet the full criteria for a diagnosis, but I came pretty close). My blog name stems from my problems dealing with these disorders in my marriage. I get extremely upset because of my husband's actions and total disregard for my feelings.
I have created this blog so I can release my anger in a healthy manner, and also to gain some insight on my situation from outside sources. Hopefully this blog will be cathartic. This blog will contain a lot of bitching. It is just what I do to make myself feel better and it works kinda. My post may make my husband out to be an asshole, but I am writing about the events that happen and my feelings toward them. Sometimes I will include his perspective of the matters if possible. I do not want to make him out to be the bad guy with my bias. I will try to make this as fair as possible. I am wise enough to know that sometimes my head is up my ass, but I just believe in most of these matters he is wrong. Comments and questions are gladly welcome, but I will not answer questions that will help to identify me in any manner. It is not because I am trying to hide, but because I am trying to get input based on the facts and not the factors. Why would I share my life with strangers? It is because I no longer want to burden my friends and family with my problems. I would talk it over with my husband, but he does not listen to me and dismisses my feelings. Most of the time this hurts me and makes me feel like I am a waste of flesh.
This blog may be disturbing, sad, depressing, and just plain weird. However, it will showcase my psyche and problems within my marriage. Maybe I can help someone realize they are not alone in there pain. I do not know. I just feel a blog is the perfect format for the book that I was going to write.
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